I love silence! Some people will find this hard to believe. Their ears have fallen off after being with me. To cover my shyness, I talk and joke when I am with others. But my preference is to be alone and silent.
My creative energy builds during silence. And this energy does not deplete if I can stay silent. No matter much I have, how quickly creative energy dissipates when I talk and socialize.
I do not have to go out to socialize. Even a telephone call depletes creative energy. I feel just as drained after a telephone call as I do after socializing.
I cope with life’s madness by crawling inside my head. How easy to crawl inside my head during silence. Telephone calls prevent silence. With great effort, I could crawl inside my head after a telephone call, but to do so, I have to force the buildup of creative energy.
To force the buildup of creative energy, I read, draw, doodle, and color. But even this takes effort. After a telephone call, I feel so drained. I just want to mope.
How much easier not to have to force anything by simply having long periods of silence. The longer, the better.